December 10th, 2009


Note to self and friends

Okay, starting yesterday, my own depression symptoms have gotten markedly worse (on a scale of 1-10, I'd say I went from a 2 on Tuesday to about a 6 yesterday). I'm apologizing for everything, even more than usual, and feeling twitchy and anxious and guilty as hell. I suspect right now I could fail a lie detector test asking nothing more threatening than "State your full name and date of birth." I'm not worried about it yet; it could just be a short-term blip. However, I'm noting here as a way of keeping myself honest.

The psych nurse practitioner did say when I saw her last month that some new research is linking depression to levels of Vitamin D3, and that taking a supplement is helpful to some people, so I will swing by one of the health-food stores on my way home and pick up a bottle. It can't do me any harm, I don't think, as long as I don't go way the hell overboard (one of the things I remember from high school: the fat-soluble vitamins are A, D, E, and K, and they can pile up in the system if you take too much, unlike the water-solubles that wash out with your urine).